beginnings
Tomorrow Annalise begins her first day of college.
I still remember her first day of school, I didn't want to leave the kindergarten class and go to work. I was mesmerized by all the kids and the teacher and how much fun they were all going to have with their legos and paints.
When I finally left, the kids surrounded me and gave me hugs and kisses and told me goodbye. I wished I could go to work like that every day, but it was only that one year of kindergarten and a bit of first grade they I got to leave with those hugs. They all got so sophisticated when they turned 6 and a half.
So, here I am with the dogs, the dogs who are oblivious to all the changes, they are in the moment, all the time, those dogs.
It's one of those times when it's all brand new again. A time when the world seems to want me to start everything over, yet again. Like the first day of school, the first day after a big break up, or when you see a brand new baby or a calf or a puppy. Hopeful, yet uncertain about what's next.
The Buddhists might say that every day we wake up a new person in a new world, we just don't realize it. I think we just don't want to think to much about all that passes by us each day. We like to focus on the big changes, the ones with meaning and rituals and large shifts in our thinking.
The difference this time, is, I feel grown up, like I've done something that mattered. I raised someone who is good and kind and smart and passionate about the world. Someone who will make a difference in the world. She'll do good things in this world. She already has. I'm grateful that I was able to do that during my life, my life that feels even more blessed and fortunate than it did a few days ago.
This month and the next I'll be traveling and moving through the world at a steady pace.
There will be trips to Jacksonville, Seattle, Albuquerque, Dallas, New York, and Los Angeles.
There is also work here and to do lists and my list of ideas and things I want to write about and take pictures of.
Guess it's time to start on the laundry while I see what John Stewart thinks of the state of the world. Or maybe its time to pull down Leaves of Grass and get a little crazy with Walt, or maybe even crazier, Ralph Waldo Emerson.
I still remember her first day of school, I didn't want to leave the kindergarten class and go to work. I was mesmerized by all the kids and the teacher and how much fun they were all going to have with their legos and paints.
When I finally left, the kids surrounded me and gave me hugs and kisses and told me goodbye. I wished I could go to work like that every day, but it was only that one year of kindergarten and a bit of first grade they I got to leave with those hugs. They all got so sophisticated when they turned 6 and a half.
So, here I am with the dogs, the dogs who are oblivious to all the changes, they are in the moment, all the time, those dogs.
It's one of those times when it's all brand new again. A time when the world seems to want me to start everything over, yet again. Like the first day of school, the first day after a big break up, or when you see a brand new baby or a calf or a puppy. Hopeful, yet uncertain about what's next.
The Buddhists might say that every day we wake up a new person in a new world, we just don't realize it. I think we just don't want to think to much about all that passes by us each day. We like to focus on the big changes, the ones with meaning and rituals and large shifts in our thinking.
The difference this time, is, I feel grown up, like I've done something that mattered. I raised someone who is good and kind and smart and passionate about the world. Someone who will make a difference in the world. She'll do good things in this world. She already has. I'm grateful that I was able to do that during my life, my life that feels even more blessed and fortunate than it did a few days ago.
This month and the next I'll be traveling and moving through the world at a steady pace.
There will be trips to Jacksonville, Seattle, Albuquerque, Dallas, New York, and Los Angeles.
There is also work here and to do lists and my list of ideas and things I want to write about and take pictures of.
Guess it's time to start on the laundry while I see what John Stewart thinks of the state of the world. Or maybe its time to pull down Leaves of Grass and get a little crazy with Walt, or maybe even crazier, Ralph Waldo Emerson.
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