birthdays
Today is my birthday and I better write this quickly as it's almost tomorrow.
I wanted something different this year, it's a different kind of year. I've never been one to want to dress up and go out and have people make a fuss over me. I just feel a bit embarrassed when that happens. I wanted to just have some people over in the morning, drink coffee, eat bagels and strawberries and talk. I wanted to see people that I rarely get to see around a table and rarely get any time to talk with about things besides screening schedules and email updates and blah blah blah.
I got my wish.
Kat arrived early, that's her way and I love that she's like that. She cut up strawberries and I went to pick up bagels and coffee. Back at the house, we sat and drank coffee and she had an o.j. and people began to drift in and join us. We had a nice group for brunch. Ryan, Meredith, Tandy, Nevie, Mike and Lori and their kids, James and Dennis, Tracy, Gerald. Nice Sunday morning group. Aralyn drove up in her pig car, and that was quite a hit with the guests and the neighbors.
Tracy stayed to help me clean up God Bless her.
This afternoon I headed to Waxahachie for baby duty. The family is taking turns staying with my cousin and his kids while they struggle to get their lives back to normal, if that is even possible. Tonight was the only night they needed me and I was happy to do it. My aunt and uncle came over and I cooked dinner, simple pasta and chicken and salad and broccoli (which no one ate, of course) and we had cupcakes from the Czech bakery.
I just fed baby Jessica a 4 oz bottle and she stayed awake as long as she could, talking to me in her little baby sounds that I repeat back to her. It feels like we're telling each other something incredibly important. She's asleep now and I'll get up in about 4 hours and we'll do the bottle and talk again.
The family is holding together.
I do think it's okay to question God on these matters. Don't get me wrong, I don't expect God to be a micromanager. I don't think God mulls over each one of our lives down to the moments and days, tossing in a few traumas mixed with a few blessings so that somehow, in the end, it all balances out. My God is more "big picture".
We just have to deal with occasional unexplainable trauma and devestation. In between, and mixed up with, this trauma and devestation, there is unexplainable kindness, beauty and compassion. Maybe that is where God is.
It's been a good year. There were some tough moments, some losses, some things I had to do that were hard, but overall, I'm feeling pretty darn lucky. I have my first feature film credit as a producer, a daughter who is amazing and loving college (and who sat in the second row for the Dolly Parton rehearsal, right next to Deanna Carter), a bunch of good friends and family, three fine dogs, two fine cats, my health, and thanks to the Storie Girls, a gift certificate to go horseback riding!
Off to bed and on to the next year...
I wanted something different this year, it's a different kind of year. I've never been one to want to dress up and go out and have people make a fuss over me. I just feel a bit embarrassed when that happens. I wanted to just have some people over in the morning, drink coffee, eat bagels and strawberries and talk. I wanted to see people that I rarely get to see around a table and rarely get any time to talk with about things besides screening schedules and email updates and blah blah blah.
I got my wish.
Kat arrived early, that's her way and I love that she's like that. She cut up strawberries and I went to pick up bagels and coffee. Back at the house, we sat and drank coffee and she had an o.j. and people began to drift in and join us. We had a nice group for brunch. Ryan, Meredith, Tandy, Nevie, Mike and Lori and their kids, James and Dennis, Tracy, Gerald. Nice Sunday morning group. Aralyn drove up in her pig car, and that was quite a hit with the guests and the neighbors.
Tracy stayed to help me clean up God Bless her.
This afternoon I headed to Waxahachie for baby duty. The family is taking turns staying with my cousin and his kids while they struggle to get their lives back to normal, if that is even possible. Tonight was the only night they needed me and I was happy to do it. My aunt and uncle came over and I cooked dinner, simple pasta and chicken and salad and broccoli (which no one ate, of course) and we had cupcakes from the Czech bakery.
I just fed baby Jessica a 4 oz bottle and she stayed awake as long as she could, talking to me in her little baby sounds that I repeat back to her. It feels like we're telling each other something incredibly important. She's asleep now and I'll get up in about 4 hours and we'll do the bottle and talk again.
The family is holding together.
I do think it's okay to question God on these matters. Don't get me wrong, I don't expect God to be a micromanager. I don't think God mulls over each one of our lives down to the moments and days, tossing in a few traumas mixed with a few blessings so that somehow, in the end, it all balances out. My God is more "big picture".
We just have to deal with occasional unexplainable trauma and devestation. In between, and mixed up with, this trauma and devestation, there is unexplainable kindness, beauty and compassion. Maybe that is where God is.
It's been a good year. There were some tough moments, some losses, some things I had to do that were hard, but overall, I'm feeling pretty darn lucky. I have my first feature film credit as a producer, a daughter who is amazing and loving college (and who sat in the second row for the Dolly Parton rehearsal, right next to Deanna Carter), a bunch of good friends and family, three fine dogs, two fine cats, my health, and thanks to the Storie Girls, a gift certificate to go horseback riding!
Off to bed and on to the next year...
4 Comments:
Happy birthday! And best wishes to you, your family, friends, critters, and Bridges!
You didn't tell me it was your birthday! Hope you had a great one....here are some retroactive well-wishes from Dallas.
Many happy wishes for you in the coming year Stacy. It's amazing to think of what you accomplished in the last one: finished a film, have self-distributed it across the country, ran a marathon, sent your beautiful, kind and poised daughter to college - and those are just the things I know about that I pulled off the top of my head. When you dream big, you live big; when you wish simply, you live simply. Happy birthday, my friend and your family continues to be in my thoughts - ever more so now that our own baby is here with us.
oh happy belated birthday. what a marvelous way to spend the day!
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