I'm going to the movies!!!

I was location scouting on Monday night after work. On my way home I had to take a detour through the Westgate Theater parking lot to avoid some terrible accident. As I was weaving through, I stared longingly at the marquee ... at all of the many movies I could be watching at that very moment. I felt this magnetism drawing me to the ticket office. I wanted so badly to stop everything and just go inside. It's been way too long. Way too long. Instead I had to grab some trail mix for dinner from Central Market on my way to a production meeting.

But Sunday, I'm going to the movies on Sunday. Just got off the phone with Kurt and he's going with. What we'll see, who knows. Who cares. I just want to sit in the dark theater with a warm sweater and a cup of trail mix to nibble on and watch whatever comes up on screen. I just want to forget and not care about anything for two hours. That's all I ask for.

As far as the movie ... it's kicking ass in every direction.

The read through ...

... was magical. I'm floored by some of these people. Truly. There's nothing fake or dishonest about them. Everything is so true and subtle and wonderful.

I'm a little tired. My best friend Karen told me she was worried about me today. Worried that I'm not taking enough free moments for myself and for my boy. I know this. But if I want this to be right, if I want this to be perfect, I have to do everything in my power to make that happen. This movie is everything to me. If I'm going to fail, if the rug is going to be yanked from beneath me, I might as well do everything I possibly, possibly can and say that I worked harder at this than I have at anything else. I'd rather fail brilliantly. But what am I saying. That's not going to happen.

I have a date.

I haven't spent time, much less, seen my boyfriend in ... well, a really long time. We have a date tonight. It starts after the 45 minute scheduling meeting with Stacy. I'm anxious to hold hands, kiss his cheek, sit in silence in the car, drive down the highway listening to new CDs. I miss my boy. I miss going to the bookstore on a whim and looking at trashy magazines. I miss doing the crossword with him. I miss waking up on a Sunday morning and lazily walking up to Quack's for a cup of coffee. I miss chatting about Mike Leigh and the latest Japanese horror film that he's watching. I miss getting snacks at Whole Foods and watching horrible movies that we love because they're so horrible.

My belly aches from eating too much for lunch at Al Borz. :(

Barely breathing.

I've been so busy lately I feel like I should schedule time to breathe. Our crew is slowly coming together. We're being fairly picky and careful with who we bring on to the team. The first rule is that they have to be nice. I don't care how much experience they have, kindness and enthusiasm outweighs everything else. With that said, we have really cool and talented crew members. My art department in particular rules! Lisa as the art director, I give all my faith to. We think on the same plane. Knowing that the look of the film is in her hands, makes me REALLY happy. She's so good. Busy weekend. Location scouting starts in about five minutes. All weekend long. We're all hopping into Jim's van tomorrow and taking an adventure around the city. I'm out.

I can't stop smiling

I have a brilliant, honest, sincere, talented and kick ass cast for JUMPING OFF BRIDGES. They're amazing. I'm like on cloud nine ever since I left the casting office this afternoon. I can't stop smiling.

Friday Night

The boy's gone this weekend. He should be rolling in to Dallas as I write this. I miss him already.

We have the final round of call backs tomorrow. The cast should be absolutely, positively finalized by Sunday. I already know who about 3/4 of the cast will be. I've been overwhelmed at what great talent I've seen. There are so many amazing actors that I wish I had more roles. It's been so long since I've had a real casting call that I haven't been exposed to a lot of the local talent. Donise and Leigh have been AMAZING through this whole process. Those two have gone above and beyond what I could've hoped for.

We start scouting confirmed locations next week. Starting with McCallum High School on Friday and then we'll be skipping all over Austin on Saturday. Checking out various venues and houses and parks and bridges. I'm excited to spend the day with Jim, Lisa, Vic, Stacy and hopefully Mike. I love days like that. Days where you're working but it feels like the furthest thing from work and more like doing stupid shit with your friends.

I have a couple of screenings of films this week. Tonight Pilot and Olo is playing at the TriPartIte Film Festival at Jo's Coffeeshop. May 12th, my ode to my boyfriend, Good Night. is playing at the Flicker Fest, Alamo Downtown at 9:45pm. I keep forgetting to submit films to festivals. I need to get on that. I've been too busy to think about anything but jumping.

God, I'm glad it's Friday.